Weddings are big business, and I'm not just talking about the multi-million pound industry that surrounds them. Like many young girls, I often day dreamed about my big day - bed sheet veil and all. I blame Disney and their unrelenting ideal that there's a prince charming out there; waiting for each and every last one of us. Lucky for me, I found my prince; (although I'll be damned if I call him that to his face) but what of our, 'fairytale' wedding?
I've had so many lovely comments, and people informing me that planning a wedding is one of the best times of your lives, yet I can't help but wonder... Is it really? If anything, it's a minefield of who, what, when etiquette whilst juggling tasks and trying to maintain a shred of sanity. Not to mention the sleepless nights worrying about what happens if we're in the throes of the ceremony and I have the uncontrollable urge to pee. The pressure is real and I'd be lying if I said that Scott and I hadn't had our fair share of squabbles in the process - but the question remains, is it ever right to cheat?
I'm not talking about the one-night stand, adulterous type of cheating so we can just step over that one right away. What I'm asking is whether or not we should feel guilty dreaming about the wedding we could have had? We've put a lot of effort into planning our wedding, Scott and I, and we're not alone. We've had help from so many family and friends, it's almost overwhelming, (in a good way) however I often wish we could scrap it all, run away to the registry office and sign on the dotted line. After all, what I desire more than anything is to be married to my best friend, so why the elaborate display? I feel almost selfish for thinking this way, and a whole lot of guilt thrown in there too. Don't get me wrong, I'm bursting with excitement for our day to come, and for us to share everything we've worked for with our nearest and dearest, but I'm willing to hold my hands up and say that yes, I do think of other weddings behind my current wedding's back. Does that make me a cheat? Maybe, but an honest one if ever there was.
